Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Snakes and Snails?? Oatmeal??

Arent Boys soppossed to be made of Snakes and snails and puppy dog tails?
I am trying to nurse my sunburn so I slip off to the restroom and I hear SCREAMING!
MOMMMM!!!!! I come running....
Covered in Green slimmy Aloe Vera.... The youngest decided to get the entire container of oatmeal out and decorate. Boys are not soppossed to be made of oatmeal! Are they??????

Burnt toast

Fried is more the word! Every year I tan in the tanning bed. Never with out fail, I will get a little Pink at first ( maybe first visit or two.) My friends know I tan pretty well. So without anymore bragging or picking on my hubby ( who is one fair-skinned, pale sucker) I am tucking my chin and saying I am Fried~ I WONT be bragging that I am darker then him. He told me last night, "You are getting older your body is changing, it can't handle things like the sun like it did when you were young"! Did I mention I am BURNT? My eyes are swollen and red, even my eyebrows and earlobes are burnt... The crease in my neck hurts too.

Oh to make things worse... Another pregnancy dream.
I dreamed I gave birth to a Fried, charred, brown, burnt up chicken. OH MY!
Running for the ALOE!

Monday, March 26, 2007

I Love this!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.! LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Friday, March 23, 2007


Sorry everyone, I cant seem to get my pictures to upload properly... Anyway I am going to go throw a rock or scream or something... Blogger is really making me MAD!

Spring Time Blahs

With the thoughts that My husband could go away again very soon... I am pondering on Springtime, and new beginnings.When he was gone he missed so much of the changing of the seasons. I couldnt believe that he missed it the way he did... He said that yes there is some green in Afghanistan but there was more sand and you had to travel to find the grass. I took a couple of pictures yesterday of home, I was TRYING to get a couple pictures of the lightning. It was tremendous! It was just Raining.... The other two are from Afghanistan. The climates are SO different! Tom informed me that while the guys were gone that one of them missed the colors of natures SO much that he had his wife seed him seeds, soil and pots to have a flower garden outside of their home. (If that is what you call being in a foriegn country with voilence all around you)Perhaps I am a little bitter and to say the least upset. I think that everyone should have some color in their lives.God gave us eyes and made things beautiful for a reason. I say we should all enjoy it! Stop and smell the flowers. Think of the service men and women that are missing home, the trees blooming, the grass turning springtime green... Something in everyday life I am sure we all take for granted! When Tom came home on leave to Indiana from Afghanistan for two weeks in January mind you, when it is cold and snowy all he could say the whole ride home was how pretty it was here how Green and how colorful things were. I challenge you all to take a minute while you are planting or picking out flowers or veggies for those gardens to think of the men and women out there missing home... Missing their families and missing COLOR! I dont think I can imagine what it's like! What it would be like to gone away from everything cheery, bright, colorful and still be away from home! God Gave us the beauty of the colors of the rainbow~

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The Rabbit Didn't Die

I am not too sure if I am really happy about this or not... I have been having dreams every single night.... This makes night 11~ that I am pregnant. WHY is this?

I talked about it to a friend or 2 thinking that would nip the dreams. Sometimes talking about a recurring dream makes them stop! It hasnt~!

I even bought and took a home test, Nothing! Nada... Thought that seeing it would stop the dreams.... it didnt! Had it again!!!! What is going on?

Hubby seems to think we are going to get called again, like we did with our nephews that we adopted... I dont know.. Maybe it is just hormones!

I must say though upon the negative results, I was initally relieved, but then I was saddened! I would have liked to be pregnant again!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

One Door Closed! To: Lizza~

As a child I often heard my mother and father say that when one door closes that God will always open another. I became a teenager, and had normal tiff's with girlfriends and Mom would say "I know you are upset Just remember that when one door closes another one will open." This pertains to friends as well she said. She always told me that things may happen that we just don't understand, and never may. Mom also said that God puts people in our paths for a reason, even if it is for a short time.

With this being said, I know she is right. We moved to a small town where I knew not a single person. Not but a week after moving we had gotten temporary custody of our nephew for about 6 months. Anyway for the sake of heartache, I wont go into all the details. Anyway, he went back to his very young mother. I was so devastated, I thought the world was ending. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I could barley breath. My husband kept reminding me for weeks that I had to get up and that I was still a mother and we had a son that needed me. I mustered up all I could within me. He suggested that I go to a spa, a tanning bed, get my nails done... anything to just get moving and pampered. I love to tan so I went to a local tanning bed. There she was!
I went in and here is this woman, that was so friendly I had initially thought Oh God, WHY IS SHE SO STINKIN NICE? I tanned we had small talk... I left and kept thinking God she WAS TOO sweet... I thought it was almost sick... It was me though, I was angery at the ENTIRE world! It really wasn't her!
I continued tanning and when I would go in she would would ALWAYS give a very cheerful Hello! We began to make small talk and we would chat... then one day we just talked and talked. It seemed as though I had known her forever. We had so much in common... We even like "Granny clothes".... LOL! Remember Shopping Lizza? I still think those outfits were for you!

I got a job working with her, and weve continued to remain friends. I never in a million years would know how important she would be to me in my life. My husband was getting ready to leave to Afghanistan and I was ALONE... (Or so I thought) At the same time he was getting ready to leave my nephew and his new baby brother were going to come and live with us. What would I do. I was sending my husband overseas and becoming a caregiver to two very young and needy children. The oldest had a lot of problems, due to his bio mom. I had no idea what was in store. She immediately stepped up and offered to help in any way she could. Sent a special card, that to this day makes me cry. She acknowledged thta she knew I was going to be there for the children even though it would be tough without my husband. Even though no one really understood, she still stood by me. Not knowing what I was really feeling she still let me lean on her.

We made it a weekly habit to go to a local resturaunt every tuesday evening, it was alot of fun, the kids all got along and ate very well. It was so nice to visit with a adult and the kids. She in more ways then one helped me through Tom being gone and the boys coming to live with us.

She was a emotional backbone for me when mine was mushy, I could call her late at night and she would NEVER get mad. I cant even think of the conversations we had about the babys.

Time has moved on and the boys are now legally ours and even though I don't see Lizza as much I know she loves us all.As much as we love and miss her, which is alot!
I guess mom was right, I was loosing my hubby to fight a war, while I had one going on at home. Lizza was there in "battle gear" fighting with me to keep me sane. She was put into my life when I needed a friend close by that I could confide in, laugh with, and lean on. The day I met her changed me forever. God gave me a friend! I love you Lizza Jane!

She sent this to me today, I am passing it to all those I love....

One morning you will never wake up, do all your friends Know you love them?

I was thinking...I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships That needed rekindling

Three words needing to be said. Let every one of Your friends know you love them.

Even if you think they don't love you back,

You would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do.

Just in case GOD calls me home before I see you again....... Live today to the fullest because tomorrow is not promised. Know that your loved!