Six, one more day!?

I can hardly believe that six whole years have went by...
Trent will be seven tommorow, Already??
Trenton came into our lives at the age of around 8 months, he came from a bad situation. He remained with us until he was 14 months old. He had learned to crawl,walk, babble, play, and smile again..to make eye contact..... He had grown in weight and in spirit. He had is first teeth come in, and ate his first birthday cake... Well it was a cupcake... it was everywhere. I just feel bad that even though I loved him so much, I took very little pictures of that time. I coped by keeping that part at distance. Even when I craddled him in my arms, I felt like I knew I had to give him back to bio parents eventually. So, I loved him, and kept him safe... but for me taking little to none in the way of pictures helped me... I didnt want the tears and pain looking at them later in time. As I thought and expected the court system from MI, let the parents have him back. I was angery that the system could do that to him... He was thriving. he was happy, and had gotten his shots all up to date which he had never had with them. He was turning into a chunk with adorable dimples and a sweet spirit.
Needless to say, He was abused when he was returned to his bio parents, and we found out he had Fetal Alcohol Syndrom, and was mildly autistic. They still failed him, so we got another phone call, for a gaurdianship, this time there was more.... he had lost 7 lbs, and momma had another baby. My prayers for Trenton to come back were answered, and with a brand new 4 week old baby brother. Can you believe the courts worked so hard to help the parents and yet they just signed their parental rights away? They didnt want them? Seven years tommorow, I had a life changing event happen... I fell in love and had my heart broke all at once! With Trenton... I know it doesnt make since to some of you, but I felt like I died when left and was treated so horribly. I feel like part of him is dead sometimes. Hes went through so much...
When all he deserved was to be loved, to be happy and healthy... Now he is... Forever! If I didnt mention it; we adopted both him and his baby brother, ( whom turned 5 Valentines day!!!) Wow! Happy Birthday Trenton... We are so glad we have had you for all 7 Birthdays!
Pictures speak volumes... I wish I could turn the clock back and snap everyday of his life sometimes....
I Love you Trenton... My lil Bug!

What we have been up to~

The summer started off great, until June..... This is what proceeded everything our friends, our community, and our family have endured since early June. Just like the song when the lightning strikes the thunder ROLLS~~~~


June brought heavy rain to our town, I think almost 10 inches to be exact, It sure was a sight to wake to ....
This is the playground surrounding my sons school, not to mention the white building you see peeking through the trees is the Kroger's grocery.
This is Marsh, they obviously were out of everything as anyone that could get to them loaded up.... It was kinda like our town was a big camp ground. Since we were all with out power for a minimum of three days Neighbors all got together with food, grills and lawn chairs and joined in TOGETHER.

Then there was the tornado that whipped through the military base.....
The military fellows helping us all out .....
Loosing a first tooth
Getting lots of freckles, and naming each and everyone.
Mastering Potty training! Wow! That was a big one!

Remember the fallen soldiers, and placing a flag for my grandfather who served in WW1Starting school again!



To me what really matters, is that God kept is all safe, he looked out for us, My husband is still gone but God keeps him covered too! Our friend that lost everything have found a new appreciation for their homes, and figured out it isn't what you have, it is what matters most In your heart... Family, being safe and together. I thank God he was there for us all!

Hands and Feet, and Moms Day

I know that topic will get some attention~ I just don't know what else to give this.

I have really been thinking about this since a new blog friend brought to my attention that she thought that soldiers were like God's hands and feet. It has never been my intention to make this blog about my husband or to get pity. I did receive a few emails regarding poor me.. Anyway, I had a really busy weekend, I was sick last week, and the boys had a game Saturday and then a birthday party for a friends daughter. Hubby has been away working 12 hour shifts with 1 hour drives to and from work for a Homeland saftey mission. All I wanted today was to stay home and stay in my Jammie's. That is ALL that I wanted for moms day. I got so MUCH more. Hubby was told to celebrate moms day another day for me, I didnt want him to worry about today with his work and him being exhausted.. I DO at times TRY to baby him! Our oldest had told me he had asked Dad to take him to buy some potting soil and flowers to put in a favorite pot that is empty. It didn't happen though. Josh did however take the Lil guys upstairs and tried to get Trent to tell him why he loved me and help him write it out. I got a picture of a 4 year olds version of one single potato. He loves my potatoes and carrots. (So he says!) I will be keeping this picture for the next meal with one of these on the menu. I got a nice homemade card from Josh. He is such an artist. Christian snuck a hot dog out of the fridge while a friend and I were talking about our mothers days and kids games. I asked him what he was eating.. I got a blah and hum. ( Couldn't understand) I smelled the hot dog, and asked "Are you eating a hot dog?" He said, "No, I eat hot ruff ruff". He calls dogs Ruff Ruffs, and so that is now I assume what he call Hot dogs! From him I got laughter.

Finally, I got a great new perspective on soldiers... I had never really considered men and women out on the battle field as God's hands and feet. I am really chewing on this. My husband would not EVER consider himself a hero, not sure about God's hands or feet either. Most of the soldiers or even firemen, medics, police officers that we know don't even consider themselves heroes. I do however think that God can use someone and their ability's to help others. Doctors for the ill, Police for those who need a mediator or to help someone get back on track when they are at fault. Firemen to save a home, office or structure. So many more examples could be given. If you ask these people, any of them I can almost bet the answer to the question of being a hero would be the same.... Most don't think of themselves as Hero's. They call it their job, their duty. However, I doubt that they have been referred to as God's hands or feet. They all run/walk on tired feet to do their job, and they all use their hands to help those in need. Whether it is fighting for their country, our freedom, our safety from a burning building, or a doctor helping the sick or a surgeon repairing damaged organs or broken limbs. They may not know it but God does have a plan for us all. Hands, feet and all.
NOTE~
I got so much today and I did it in the comfort of my home wearing my Jammie's, snuggling on the couch watching old movies. This really was the best mothers day ever, and it cost NOTHING! A note though.. Hubby ALWAYS babies me on mothers day so he is not in the doghouse, he was doing his job being mine and YOUR protector using the hands and feet God gifted him! Thank you Michelle for the new prospective!

The Rabbit Didn't Die

I am not too sure if I am really happy about this or not... I have been having dreams every single night.... This makes night 11~ that I am pregnant. WHY is this?

I talked about it to a friend or 2 thinking that would nip the dreams. Sometimes talking about a recurring dream makes them stop! It hasnt~!

I even bought and took a home test, Nothing! Nada... Thought that seeing it would stop the dreams.... it didnt! Had it again!!!! What is going on?

Hubby seems to think we are going to get called again, like we did with our nephews that we adopted... I dont know.. Maybe it is just hormones!

I must say though upon the negative results, I was initally relieved, but then I was saddened! I would have liked to be pregnant again!