Snakes and Snails?? Oatmeal??

Arent Boys soppossed to be made of Snakes and snails and puppy dog tails?
I am trying to nurse my sunburn so I slip off to the restroom and I hear SCREAMING!
MOMMMM!!!!! I come running....
Covered in Green slimmy Aloe Vera.... The youngest decided to get the entire container of oatmeal out and decorate. Boys are not soppossed to be made of oatmeal! Are they??????

Burnt toast

Fried is more the word! Every year I tan in the tanning bed. Never with out fail, I will get a little Pink at first ( maybe first visit or two.) My friends know I tan pretty well. So without anymore bragging or picking on my hubby ( who is one fair-skinned, pale sucker) I am tucking my chin and saying I am Fried~ I WONT be bragging that I am darker then him. He told me last night, "You are getting older your body is changing, it can't handle things like the sun like it did when you were young"! Did I mention I am BURNT? My eyes are swollen and red, even my eyebrows and earlobes are burnt... The crease in my neck hurts too.

Oh to make things worse... Another pregnancy dream.
I dreamed I gave birth to a Fried, charred, brown, burnt up chicken. OH MY!
Running for the ALOE!

I Love this!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.! LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

UGH!

Sorry everyone, I cant seem to get my pictures to upload properly... Anyway I am going to go throw a rock or scream or something... Blogger is really making me MAD!

Spring Time Blahs

With the thoughts that My husband could go away again very soon... I am pondering on Springtime, and new beginnings.When he was gone he missed so much of the changing of the seasons. I couldnt believe that he missed it the way he did... He said that yes there is some green in Afghanistan but there was more sand and you had to travel to find the grass. I took a couple of pictures yesterday of home, I was TRYING to get a couple pictures of the lightning. It was tremendous! It was just Raining.... The other two are from Afghanistan. The climates are SO different! Tom informed me that while the guys were gone that one of them missed the colors of natures SO much that he had his wife seed him seeds, soil and pots to have a flower garden outside of their home. (If that is what you call being in a foriegn country with voilence all around you)Perhaps I am a little bitter and to say the least upset. I think that everyone should have some color in their lives.God gave us eyes and made things beautiful for a reason. I say we should all enjoy it! Stop and smell the flowers. Think of the service men and women that are missing home, the trees blooming, the grass turning springtime green... Something in everyday life I am sure we all take for granted! When Tom came home on leave to Indiana from Afghanistan for two weeks in January mind you, when it is cold and snowy all he could say the whole ride home was how pretty it was here how Green and how colorful things were. I challenge you all to take a minute while you are planting or picking out flowers or veggies for those gardens to think of the men and women out there missing home... Missing their families and missing COLOR! I dont think I can imagine what it's like! What it would be like to gone away from everything cheery, bright, colorful and still be away from home! God Gave us the beauty of the colors of the rainbow~

The Rabbit Didn't Die

I am not too sure if I am really happy about this or not... I have been having dreams every single night.... This makes night 11~ that I am pregnant. WHY is this?

I talked about it to a friend or 2 thinking that would nip the dreams. Sometimes talking about a recurring dream makes them stop! It hasnt~!

I even bought and took a home test, Nothing! Nada... Thought that seeing it would stop the dreams.... it didnt! Had it again!!!! What is going on?

Hubby seems to think we are going to get called again, like we did with our nephews that we adopted... I dont know.. Maybe it is just hormones!

I must say though upon the negative results, I was initally relieved, but then I was saddened! I would have liked to be pregnant again!

One Door Closed! To: Lizza~

As a child I often heard my mother and father say that when one door closes that God will always open another. I became a teenager, and had normal tiff's with girlfriends and Mom would say "I know you are upset Just remember that when one door closes another one will open." This pertains to friends as well she said. She always told me that things may happen that we just don't understand, and never may. Mom also said that God puts people in our paths for a reason, even if it is for a short time.

With this being said, I know she is right. We moved to a small town where I knew not a single person. Not but a week after moving we had gotten temporary custody of our nephew for about 6 months. Anyway for the sake of heartache, I wont go into all the details. Anyway, he went back to his very young mother. I was so devastated, I thought the world was ending. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I could barley breath. My husband kept reminding me for weeks that I had to get up and that I was still a mother and we had a son that needed me. I mustered up all I could within me. He suggested that I go to a spa, a tanning bed, get my nails done... anything to just get moving and pampered. I love to tan so I went to a local tanning bed. There she was!

~Lizza~

I went in and here is this woman, that was so friendly I had initially thought Oh God, WHY IS SHE SO STINKIN NICE? I tanned we had small talk... I left and kept thinking God she WAS TOO sweet... I thought it was almost sick... It was me though, I was angery at the ENTIRE world! It really wasn't her!

I continued tanning and when I would go in she would would ALWAYS give a very cheerful Hello! We began to make small talk and we would chat... then one day we just talked and talked. It seemed as though I had known her forever. We had so much in common... We even like "Granny clothes".... LOL! Remember Shopping Lizza? I still think those outfits were for you!

I got a job working with her, and weve continued to remain friends. I never in a million years would know how important she would be to me in my life. My husband was getting ready to leave to Afghanistan and I was ALONE... (Or so I thought) At the same time he was getting ready to leave my nephew and his new baby brother were going to come and live with us. What would I do. I was sending my husband overseas and becoming a caregiver to two very young and needy children. The oldest had a lot of problems, due to his bio mom. I had no idea what was in store. She immediately stepped up and offered to help in any way she could. Sent a special card, that to this day makes me cry. She acknowledged thta she knew I was going to be there for the children even though it would be tough without my husband. Even though no one really understood, she still stood by me. Not knowing what I was really feeling she still let me lean on her.

We made it a weekly habit to go to a local resturaunt every tuesday evening, it was alot of fun, the kids all got along and ate very well. It was so nice to visit with a adult and the kids. She in more ways then one helped me through Tom being gone and the boys coming to live with us.

She was a emotional backbone for me when mine was mushy, I could call her late at night and she would NEVER get mad. I cant even think of the conversations we had about the babys.

Time has moved on and the boys are now legally ours and even though I don't see Lizza as much I know she loves us all.As much as we love and miss her, which is alot!

I guess mom was right, I was loosing my hubby to fight a war, while I had one going on at home. Lizza was there in "battle gear" fighting with me to keep me sane. She was put into my life when I needed a friend close by that I could confide in, laugh with, and lean on. The day I met her changed me forever. God gave me a friend! I love you Lizza Jane!

She sent this to me today, I am passing it to all those I love....

One morning you will never wake up, do all your friends Know you love them?

I was thinking...I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships That needed rekindling

Three words needing to be said. Let every one of Your friends know you love them.

Even if you think they don't love you back,

You would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do.

Just in case GOD calls me home before I see you again....... Live today to the fullest because tomorrow is not promised. Know that your loved!

To Joey and Amy!

Okay girls, I know you read this... So get ready to laugh or cry!

This is for the two of you...

Joe and I talk all the time... So do Amy and I.

I think anymore we talk about most of the same things. ( J, A and I) Just different context and one on one...

I had the funniest conversation last night with JOEY about passing gas... How many girlfriends do you know that you can do that with? I mean we laughed out loud... Toot here! Toot there! She is one of the most comfortable persons I know. I mean come on...I can relax with her and be myself! I couldn't talk about things with others that I do with her... NOT IN MILLION YEARS!!! I confide in her, laugh with her and eat Mexican food with her...Enjoy basket hunting with her. What more can I ask for.. Other then if we lived closer we could share a few fraps from Starbucks together. I couldn't ask for more....She is the best! No, I wont get mushy, she knows she is special... Even if she has squirrels in her tree~

Here's to you Joe....... The fridge! What a boring day back a few weeks ago.. cleaning out the fridge while being stuck at home with whiny kids that needed to get out! The fridge was EMPTY!! AND.....as you can see I really needed to go to the store so anyway I thought that what a better thing to do... being cooped up due to the weather I cleaned it! Then I took a picture after I went to the store.. Hey atleast while I did it I was inside nice and warm, but going crazy as one can see! Why else would I post this picture.. I am glad only friends and family read this! I must be CRAZY!

Miss Amy....

You have know idea what you mean to me...

I wouldnt have said it a few years back, we may not always see eye to eye, but we have one thing in common...BUB!

I know there is alot you miss that you wish you could share with us, as we miss the family time too!

Even though we can have dysfunctional families somehow there are a few that make it functional.

Do sister in laws talk about things we do? For the sake of embarrasment I wont go into the details! I know you have been through being away from a loved one, and though you are remarried you know what the seperation is from a hubby being away with the military. You know what is to feel the sleepless nights and sleeping alone, usually on the couch because the bed feels so big! I know that you are proud of Bub, and miss him, the boys and I.

You will be back before I know it and then the miles that are now between us will be a dream... Yeah....

A dream because I think that may be what keeps us sane... I know I had to ruin it ... I can't help it; I cant bring myself to be mushy!

Amy, I give you what you have missed... Pic's of the boys! Home!

J and A...

I love you guys! Sisters I have, but with them no relationship... The 2 of you make up for it. You guys are the best, I am glad that you are part of my life!

Thank you~ Hugs!

Its Raining... Its Snowing!!

The weather has been absolutley beautiful... AND MESSY! We have had rain then snow then more rain then sleet then all snow... Rain then 8+ inches of snow then a lil more ice then a lil more snow!

The kids and I have been stuck indoors... Snow days at school and county emergencys have
kept us home... While it is nice to be at home and snuggled in I HAVE CABIN FEVER!!!
Today I am going to brave the weather and go into town and go to WALMART and buy groceries and laundry soap... That is one good thing about this week... Not being able to get out has made me do ALL the laundry and it is is folded and PUT AWAY!!!

I know this isnt a great post but I am too antsy to get out! I might post later today~ so check back!

15 Years!

Today is our 15 Anniversary
It seems like yesterday that I walked down the asile to become Mrs. M
It doesnt seem like it has been this long
He is my protector
My diamond in the rough
My Hero
My Best Friend

For all of this and more...
I love you..
Happy Anniversary Honey!

Snow play!

The boys went out to play as a group of three, however Trenton (4) came in crying that he wasnt having fun and it is too cold. The 2 year old and his big brother are sledding down the hill and as I peek outside and use the walkie talkies to talk to them I am told clearly how much fun they are having...The oldest politley told me to stop calling them. LOL!!! Christian is looking like an abombinal snowman... He is bundled up good.... LOL Trenton is sipping hot chocolate, snuggled under his comfy blanket watching GO Deigo Go waiting for his brothers to come back indoors. I think it wont be long since I dont want them getting sick on me..

Let It Snow!

We knew it was coming.... It just makes me excited to see it is actually here!
I love snow, we have had a lil here and a lil there. Today is the first "real" snow fall of the year. We had an accumulation of about 4 inches over a couple of days a few weeks ago, but it has been snowing since around 10am here. It is absolutley beautiful. We moved to the country 4 years ago and seeing the wooded hills in the winter is just breath taking when they are covered in snow.

I rushed to the store this morning to get a few groceries so that I would not have to travel when it was slick witht he children. There wasn't a speck of snow when I left but my van was covered when I got back outside from buying groceries. IT WAS SLICK TOO! I think I will bundle the boys up later and let them play after their nap... A lil snow never hurt anyone!

Victory!!!!!

The COLTS WON!!! I live in Indiana as you may already know.. Our team won the superbowl. My husband ALWAYS cheers for the opposing team that the Colts play but last night he was caught cheering a couple of times for the Colts. The Super Bowl really was SUPER!

I am feeling alot better from my cold last week. I am still not sleeping as well so I wish I could take a nap LOL! Hubby and I went out friday night and had a nice time. I can't believe how simple our "date" was. LOL!! We went to Fazolis, had spaghetti, salad and breadsticks... Then headed to the mall... It closed on us while we were inside looking at a Sleep number bed. Then we went to Walmart got a few groceries and came home !!! We laughed at how we are just like Ole Married folks! We had a great time without the boys and just being together... How was your all's weekend?

Random thoughts!

100 Things about me! Whos next?
1. My middle name is Star and I never really liked it.
2.Turning 33 has really been okay!

3.I'm not digging the extra grey hairs that my 30's are bringing me though.
4..In the past I never really enjoyed the beauty of brown eyes and now I love them.
2 of My boys' eyes are different shades of brown.
5.My mom and dad took me to see Disney on Ice when I was 6 and I remember it very clearly. The started my fetish with Disney and Pooh!
6.I loved going to my aunts farm when I was little and Now I live on one without animals though.
7.I love all sorts of farm animals and would have a ton of pets if I could.
8. I think baby kittens are the BEST although they they stink I think it's healty to have pets, something to have to care for & nurture.
9. I think that my mother needs a pet desperately.
10.I love sunshine, it makes me happy yet a good rainstorm is wonderful too.
11.Tornadoes terrify me.
12. I grew up in a small town and loved it now it has grown We moved and now I live in a small town again.
13. Sometimes I wish I could fly and be free like a bird .
14. I wonder what it would've been like to have a brother growing up.
15. My hubby is the one person who can ALWAYS make me laugh and I love him for that.
16. I used to fantasize about living in Walnut Grove ( I loved Little House on the Prarie)

17. I watched 90210 every season til it ended
18. I will watch reruns sometimes.
19. I took my oldest son to see Hercules on Ice and I think I enjoyed it more than he did.
20.I used to like Debbie Gibson.
21. I llove the color purple.
22.I love watching Soap Operas, Maybe I was a soap star in a previous life
23. already running out of things to say.
24. I've watched General Hospital since 1992, when I was on bedrest with my son
25. I have never had a pedicure I have had toenails painted though.
I am going to stop counting
I love men in uniforms
Red wine gives me headaches. :-(
I have a very low tolerance to alcohol, don't know if this is good or bad?!
I love 80s music.
I love having 3 sons yet wonder what it'd be like to have a daughter at times.
I think I'm finally over my baby fever....thankfully.
I do wonder about adopting a girl at times though.
I have enough faith to know God knows what's best for me and He's in control, not me.
I thought I wanted 2 kids, Tom wanted 10 (even though he's from a family of 6) so we compromised at 1 and it worked for us. TOUGH AT TIMES... God gave us 2 more then by adoption
I'm a homebody and am happy to spend time there.
When I laugh really hard I cry because I pee my pants..
I don't like to cry and usually avoid sad movies....unless I NEED to cry.
I really love SUVS even though they're gas-guzzlers. I can't help it.
I'm so grateful for the wonderful women God has brought into my life.
Quiet time is my therapy.
I love to wear flip flops .
I love nice clothes but refuse to spend alot of money on them.
I love the Brown county shops which are about 25 minutes from me..
I am feeling like I dont know what else to say again.
I stopped this questionaire for 2 days.
Flowers & gardening are therapuetic for me even though it's work.
Music can change my mood in an instant.
I can't imagine my life without faith in God .
It's shocking I didn't end up with a red head, I found one so attractive but then again I was young and NOW I think he is UGLY!
I think Army men in uniform are very sexy.
I wish I could kick my caffiene habit.
My body has been very kind to me despite the lack of exercise I've given it.
I'd love to work up to running eventually to keep weight off & keep me young.
I'm going to go somewhere on vacation this sumer..
I'm very grateful for my husband's job which allows me to stay at home until the kids go to school.
I really really want to visit NYC and LA someday.
If I could afford a tummy tuck I'd get one in a heartbeat. If I could escape the fear.
I wish my hair was stick-straight but as I get older it's getting wavier.
I didn't like coffee until my 30s which is probably a good thing.
Someday I will have a big jacuzzi bath tub.
Someday I will also have a room just for my crafting rather than a small corner as I have now.
It's hard raising polite, well-mannered, considerate boys.....for me it is anyway. I don't think these things come naturally to them unfortunately.
I want to go back to work.
I used to feel great guilt when I'd leave my husband & children for a short time, now.....not so much.
I love to get manicures.
I wish I could play the piano .
I wish I loved to cook.
I've broken my foot it still bothers me at times.
I remember where I was when I heard that The space shuttle blew up,9-11 & Princess Diana died.
War & child abuse sadden me greatly.
I feel for people who do not have faith or belief in God or a higher being.
I am immune to caffiene.
I want to live somewhere warm in the winters
I'd love to own a Bed & Breakfast someday.
It's my fantasy to own a nice bigh house someday with a pool
It will be one of the greatest joys of my life to have daughters-in-law and grandchildren.
I love antiques and imagining stories about where they came from.
I am getting such a headache from this!

The colorPurplebrings me joy.
Sometimes I long for a much slower simpler life.
Great photography evokes alot of emotion within me.
I wish I had beautiful tanned skin I am so pale right now.
I met my husband the first time when I was in 6th grade.
I don't like not having family near me.
I love having alot of books around me, I love to read.
I love Baskets.
Fun, comfortable, cute affordable clothes seem to be getting harder & harder to find.
Sometimes I wish I was a young single college student with life at my feet.
I love blogging.
I love food cooked outside in the summertime and hope to have an outdoor patio kitchen someday.
Mexican food is my very favorite .
I wish God would tell me what I'm supposed to do with my life.
Maybe I just need to learn how to listen better.
I talk to God daily.
I rarely think about ME this much but I've really liked it.
I think I am almost done.
This was really hard....
I can't believe I'm finished!

My Birthday... STINKS

I really wish that I could say that today has been a good day.. But I CANT! I Feel AWFUL! Last night my throat started hurting and I have since basically lost my voice. Since it IS MY BIRTHDAY I think when hubby gets home I will crawl into bed! With all the phone calls I might have to turn off the phones ringer but hey THAT IS WHAT I WANT!!! Hope you all feel better then me!

Well today is proving to be a much better day, the boys woke up cheery. I snuggled them each up and loved and kissed on them. They both ate breakfast and are snuggled up the couch watching GO Diego.

Ok guys I am stressing here, and I dont know why. This should be something I want to jump and do but I just dont have it in me. I have gotten lazy I guess. HELP! Tommorow is my birthday and the 8th is our 15 year anniversary... Anyway Hubs has army stuff to tend to and we decided to get a sitter for the boys and go to dinner friday night. I just dont feel like it I can't pinpoint why. We havent been out alone in 2 years, we ALWAYS take the boys everywhere we go. To be quite honest, I do the grocery shopping with them in tow. I keep thinking maybe we should just stay home, just stay home and watch our normal shows you know the typical... Normal Boring Routine~ Nothing special. My friend thinks maybe my spirit is telling me no for a reason. HELP!!!! This is something I should be looking forward to!

NO Way Mom!

I dont really know why my 4 year old thinks that he is SUDDENLY MY BoSS!
There are days when he is a really great kid... HOWEVER today he has me seeing RED! I know there are alot of things he does that a "typical boy" does BUT..... I really think that God may be trying to teach ME a lesson or two about patience. Something that is not my strong suite.

Today I asked him what he would like for breakfast, he responded COOKIES.... I said no that was not a breakfast choice. I named off cereal, waffles, eggs, oatmeal, toast, poptarts and he says AGAIN ...COOKIES... I should have known then how the day would go. He refused to eat his cereal even after that is what he finally picked. The day has been one chaotic mess. He has went upstairs to his big brothers room and brought down some army men that he has had since he was little, but kept because dad bought them for him while he has been away with the military. Needless to say the men look as though they went through battle. They are missing limbs thanks to Little man with attitude. He has been trowing toys and boldly telling me that he does not have to do what I say.... What am I doing wrong? I thought that I was the mommy. Instead he keeps telling me I said No mom, I dont have to! Your not my boss! HELP!!!!