Sunday, December 16, 2007

Fun Tree Topper

I have ALWAYS wanted a snowman tree topper, I didn't want a Angel, a Star or a Santa....
Do you know that I have NEVER EVAH seen one though! I am sure that my fellow Snowmen lovers out there can agree!
Alas, until now!!!!!

I give you Mr. Snowman, that is what the kids are calling him! Sorry this first picture is a little fuzzy but, keep looking! :)

I made him all by myself.... Which makes me very happy and proud! I can hardly wait to turn the tree on and see his body glisten.... ( Used clear sparkly glitter spray paint to get that effect), Looks just like fresh fallen snow~However I know that you can see it in the pictures!
The HARDEST part was waiting on the gorilla glue to dry and hold all the dowel rods firm! Oh the anticipation was BRUTAL! All and all it was a lot of fun and I am very thankful that he turned out so Darn cute! BTW.... EAT YOUR SNOW HEART OUT LIZZA! ;) LOL! You know I love ya!

Friday, December 14, 2007

A Peice of Me



By the way, I love SNOWMEN.... Notice the cute snowman garland? I totally took the tree apart last night and redid the whole entire thing! LOL :) The things that you do when the kids are in bed sound asleep and you are lonely and have a big empty bed to fall into! Oh, I miss Tom!

As a child I grew up as a preachers ( PK for short) daughter, things were hard. My father was assistant pastor of our small hometown church and he always wanted to stress the importance of the meaning of Christmas. My mother and father disagreed alot on whether to give us girls presents. Dad thought that something small and simple and inexpensive was the way to go... He didn't want to feed into a mass frenzy of loosing the TRUE meaning of Christmas.
Mom always wanted to decorate elaborately, and give us lots of gifts. In turn she did what she wanted and this caused ALOT of fighting between them at Christmas. Which has caused problems for me that have lasted since childhood. I dreaded Christmas as a child because there would always be yelling and fighting for ones beliefs. I can NOT say that either of them were wrong but there should have been some compromise. There was also the fact that there was not alot of money because my mom is a shopper... ALL year round! So at Christmas she maxed out credit cards and then more fighting about bills coming in. However the truth is that she never bought us much..She spent it on other things... FOR the HOUSE!. IT was the decorations, the place mats,tablecloths, the garland, the wreaths the ELABORATE dinner complete with Fine China. Which I may add she bought a new set EVERY year. Inviting friends over and shooing us kids away, but NOT with out hearing her say... Oh look at what I bought~ She always has been about showing off. Spending well beyond the means of Dad's income. Don't get me wrong I love both of my parents but to say the least I do not have the best relationship with my mom.

To me every year I walk through the stores and feel anxiety sweep over me like I know the past will repeat. It DOESN'T! ( The past). It is completely opposite. My husband LOVES the holidays and likes to pick fun things out to decorate with... WITHIN reason. Not to mention we buy alot of things the day after Christmas for the following year. I guess what I am saying is that the holidays have always been hard for me. I remember too much from a child. So, in turn when I hear Christmas music on the radio, and start seeing the decorations come out at the store I kinda shut down. That is totally unfair and something I have worked on for the last several years. I have gotten alot better at not getting sad or anxious about the holidays and now I even laugh at the Charlie Brown Specials , and Rudolph and Frosty..... We couldn't even watch those as a child, because it was not what the meaning of Christmas was.

I am constantly reminding myself that I do NOT have to repeat what my parents did through the holidays and make my children suffer and not have fun. I force myself at times to get into the spirit, and have fun. It IS becoming more natural. Which makes me VERY happy.
I love to see the boy's faces light up when the tree is complete and we decorate with snowmen and holiday globes and even Rudolph and the Snow Miser and Heat Miser... ( TOM'S FAVORITES). I love it when the kids and Tom walk around singing "Put one foot in front over the other".... Or "Rudolph the Red nosed reindeer had a very shiny nose"......

We have some of our own traditions now, like making monkey bread on Christmas Eve morning, making Christmas cookies, and watching A Christmas Story, and Its a Wonderful life... WHICH I LOVE BUT TEND TO USUALLY FALL ASLEEP THROUGH! Most of all were a family, that is what matters, and that it is a happy time for the children.

I CAN NOT always live in the past holidays from my childhood, and I refuse to let that consume me. It is NOT easy but IT IS WORTH IT.... Watching the kids faces opening gifts, Reading The Night Before Christmas and even about The birth of Baby Jesus. They even get excited about our simple nativity display. They get very excited and we ALWAYS tell him "Happy birthday" on Christmas!
They get the best of both worlds, and parents that don't fight about the holidays....
After all, isn't this supposed to be a happy, and FUN time of year????????????

Wednesday, December 05, 2007




Here is a quick update,


Last friday I spilled paint on the office floor...


Saturday we went to my MIL's to help her move Tom's sister stuff out of of her apartment. WAS NOT FUN!

Sunday our washer broke, Tom fixed it...

As soon as I started the dryer it broke.... Tom fixed it too....


Tom left Monday and the world seems like it has fallen down around me. I will survive though!


I went to Dr. yesterday with a double ear infection and bronchitis... Not to mention the nurse gasped and said your temprature is 103.2..Did you know you were running a temp?... YES, I KNEW I HAD A FEVER! I am feeling a little better today, enough so that I made a cake for the kids and for Tom who is sneaking off post tonight... HE! HE! HE! So far it is still intact and the kids are staying out of it! So tonight we will have lots of family time and I am sure a sugar buzz! Might even throw in a few Christmas special's.


Even better I did get a new purse from someone who makes them online! LOVE IT!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Finding Joy

Finding Joy is NOT always easy. All weekend I have been on the verge of tears, and even as I type right now I AM LITTERALLY about to loose it! It never fails that right before my husband leaves something seems to go wrong and cause us to squabble at each other. Almost like it is somehow going to make him leaving a lil easier. I know it does sound morbid, but that is the way it seems most times. We went and helped my wonderful mother in law yesterday with some things she can't physically do, but yet needed done before he left. SOO! I had a much longer post but this is all that was saved so I give up... I am throwing my hands in the air~






Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Dizzy

I feel like the world is spinning. I want it to stop if only for a second. The spinning is SOO fast!
I am completely overwhelmed. I started this whole thing with finding something EVERYDAY that I am thankful for.... However!
Today, Life just has fizzed and to be blunt IT SUCKS!
Our computer has been acting dumb and caught some INCURABLE virus and we decided to take the plunge and brake down and get a new one. But..now I have to figure out Vista Shimishta. Hopefully I will be able to add photos when I add them to this new computer which I might learn to like.... I just found comfort like an old shoe in my old one. The keys seemed to fit my fingertips and everything! I will be okay. I just feel a bit dizzy. Thank God we could get a new one and not pay for it until after the holidays.

Matters only seemed to get a bit more fun (sarcastically speaking) when the phone rang and it was the big guys from the commander, Hubby now has to report MONDAY! I know that I can find comfort and thanks in the fact that he has been of the last week and a half HOWEVER I feel like being a CRAB! So I will say this....I AM thankful that he has been home on vacation spending time with us all!

Monday, November 26, 2007

Are you playing?

Today I am thankful.......
I am thankful that my husband is cook bacon and french toast!
Thankful that my children slept in a bit and are at the moment cheerful!

Don't forget to leave those comments, and I will draw a name and choose someone to send a goody to! I will draw Wednesday evening!

Isnt it Monday?

I am lost, I told you that blogger was being mean.... I still cant get pictures to upload and now it is saying I posted on sunday in the last 2 post which were actually today! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe am just too tired to figure it out!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Still looking....

I am still looking for comments to pick a name from! You know everyone likes something free in the mail! Leave me a comment on what you are thankful for and keep checking and commenting I will pick a name on Wednesday~



This is what the holidays are ALL about. It isn't what you GET... It is WHAT Are you thankful for? It could ALL be taken away in a blink of an eye!



Think of the California fires, Hurricane Katrina, 911~ A loved one going off to war and never returning~ It could be anything~



Today, I am thankful that my hubby is STILL on vacation ( until DEC 10th) when he leaves for Iraq. I am thankful we didn't get into a fight when I rearranged the office and I broke the computer desk. He didn't get mad,and he bought some brackets and fixed it back up!

Thankfulness after Thanksgiving

Please Lord let all my photo's upload... Blogger is being so mean again! Then again, everything has been going wrong since yesterday~ I am thankful it is a new day! So we can all start fresh.

Yesterday my computer crashed and hubby took it apart and read a book on how to possibly fix it. Well as you can see I am online... BUT! The computer is still not acting right~ Seems slow and like it is dying. I just would like to make it through Christmas and then I will worry about a new one. IF... it can make it~ So in any regard, I am thankful I can atleast post a bit.

The friday night after Thanksgiving, we have a tradition to go downtown to Indianapolis ( No matter how cold) and watch the lighting of the Christmas tree, and spend time with some really great friends. I am so thankful they are such good freinds and that God has put them in our lives!

Jordan was a blast too, carring her blanket everywhere to stay warm, she has a special place in my heart, and she caused a laugh too.... She was told by a man that she looked like a Native American toting her blanket. I am thankful for the face she made when he said that to us!
Just wish I had a picture of it~

I was also glad to walk through the mall with our friends and laugh at Tom... ( We wont embarass him on here, but we laughed!) The time Joey and I had walking through the stores and looking at the decor... Esp the SNOWMEN! Helping her pick her Christmas cards...
I am thankful for the time we shared,That Tom was home safe with us, and that the kids ALL got along and behaved!

Starbucks was there as well to keep us ALL warm! The gave out FREE Hot cocoa! We tried the Peppermint~
I am thankful they warmed us all up with good cheer, the FREE cocoa, and the man serving making me laugh! Oh and repeating his little dance so I could take a picture of it!

Monday, November 19, 2007

A Lil Reto Feeling!


Christain pulled out the Old VCR tapes from a long time ago! He said, "Mom, What dat?"
I told him they were movies like the DVDS, he didnt believe me.... So I took him to our room and pilled him up on our bed and popped Bambi in for him... Finding it fitting since his brother was just mean to Bambi's family. HA HA!

Deer Season~



I can hardly believe it is almost Thanksgiving! I am really looking forward to it! We are having some really great friends, and Tom's mom over and planning a HUGE meal! I can HARDLY wait! I love fall and the beauty of the colors but now it is all faded away and the trees are almost bare so I have the picture to remind me of home and the beauty of the season!
Opening day for Deer was Saturday.... Josh got his first deer and according to hubby it was a nice one. I just could cry though... I don't think Bambi should EVER, EVAH, EVAH,EVAH have to be killed... Joshua was SUPER excited! I am happy that he had a good day hunting with his DAD! That will be a memory he will always have!
Boy's will be boys and I just can't believe my little ( But bigger then me) baby is growing up SO fast! I could just CRY! Yet I am so proud of him... Even though I will NOT eat the meat! EWW~
Can you believe I posted 2 days in a row? LOL!!!!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Big Girl Panties, Cotton Balls and Faith!

I seem to have fallen into a RUT! I know, I know, I havent blogged and when I have it seems because I have something to say that is about my sad story of hubby leaving.

Today though I turned the T.V. on to the last channel that was on when I went to bed last night... I WANTED to wathc the weather.... BUT God had other plans!

This is what I got in the last 5 minutes of the program...

God has promised ME, I am Blessed
God has promised ME I am Strong
I CAN do all things through Christ.....
I AM a child of God,
I have talents and treasures to offer to those around me.

Here is where my Faith has to come in.... Which is filled with God's promises.

Mark 4 31-32 It is a grain of mustard seed, which, when it sown in the earth, is less than all the seeds that be in the earth:
But when it sown, it groweth up, and becomes taller than all the herbs, and shooteth out great branches; so that the fowls of the air may lodge under the shadow of it.

God says to have peace, be still he is with me... Even on days that hubby will be gone and I am lonely and people worry me about thoughts they have on him coming home. He is with me on the days the kids are running around making messes and making new ones before I get the last one cleaned up. On nights I am comforting a sick child or I can't sleep because the bed feels empty. He is always there. I have to keep that mustard seed watered so it can grow~ ALL I NEED IS FAITH THE SIZE OF A MUSTARD SEED! AND Of coarse and my Big girl panties, and cotton balls for my ears!


Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Little Smiles......


I was so happy to have pictures FINALLY upload I decided to add a few more. Just things the kids do that make me smile. Like taking the trash to the road when the trash can is as big as they are. I Love it... when the boys can play and get along and make silly faces...with silly teeth..... Just makes me smile:) Even when I am BLUE............ I couldn't get the other photo's to upload.... ERRRRRRRRRR Imagine that!

Help I am in a FUNK!



Do you ever fell like you just want to stay in bed? I have felt this way for weeks now... I am SOOOO tired. I think I am just too anxious and overwhelmed with hubby leaving soon. TOO soon!
Stay Tuned... I will be back to posting again SOON!


My kids do make me smile though.. I just wish I was NOT so tired......I guess stress will do that!

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Where Oh Where~

Where has the time went? Seems like yesterday we received a phone call that we had been given the gift of adopting Trenton and Christian. We were going to court to actually relinquish guardianship of the boys after having them for over a year. Trent was 2, and Christian was 8 weeks when they came to live with us. Trent had however been with us previously for 6 months, and was returned to his parents, only to be abused over and over again. Lots of praying and I guess pleading with God for them to be safe. Not to mention that I told God...Out of human mommy nature NOT to send them to me again UNLESS I could keep them. So again I was heartbroken KNOWING I would have to give them back. I was mad at God but in the back of my mind I kept saying God I TOLD YOU NOT TO GIVE THEM TO ME AGAIN UNLESS.........................................

The day was so clear it was the day before I had to leave for Michigan to take them back, go to court and give them to their parents. While taking a shower the phone rang, I peeked to see if it was Tom on caller I.D. It was the boys bio mom. I started to ignore it.... Let it ring! She called again, I answered from the shower, (Speaker phone). She asked if I was sitting down, of coarse I wasn't. I was thinking GREAT.... she is pregnant or something. Only half listening to her she asked if we would adopt her boys. Okay....that got my attention... Water turned off and soap on my hair..... I asked WHAT? Making sure I heard her right, She was not comfortable with taking the boys from a safe loving home where they were growing and thriving. Nor was she ready to be responsible ( Although I think that was very mature of her to KNOW she couldn't do it).

So now a million questions were running through my head... What about court.... so on and so on. The CPS worker called me, lawyers were calling me, NOT long after she called me. Mom had asked to be the one to tell me, and then when her attorney knew she had talked to me the phone rang and rang. That day and the rest of the night are still a blur. I didn't have to pack their things up, and give them back but we still had to go to court, just for a different reason. She had been planning this for a bit so everything was set in motion.

I remember sitting in the chair at the stand ( The chair was like an office chair). I was VERY nervous. The court room was full of CASA workers, lawyers, CPS workers and so on. The parents were there, the maternal and paternal family's as well. I was asked questions about the boys and how I felt about them, how I felt about keeping them and loving them as my own. I was overwhelmed and fuzzy headed... ( I was spinning in my chair LITERALLY) After court my son and the CPS worker and Lawyer laughed and said did you realize you were spinning back and forth??? LOL?????? NERVES!

The boys were ours, after our 90 day wait....The parents had time to change their minds. ( 90 days of waiting and worrying) It was official October 10th, 2005!!!!!!

Monday, August 13, 2007

Going Home~

A soldier went home this week... He went home to Jesus. He was a soldier from my current home town. I didn't know him personally, in fact my husband nor myself had even ever met him. Yet still, my heart aches. My husband was where he had been.... Traveled the same paths as him.... Even though it was two years prior. I can't explain how I feel inside. I don't watch the news other then trying to catch the local weather, it upsets me too much. Anyway while taking my children to the pool a few days ago... I noticed that there was ALOT of traffic, which for the time of day was unusual. I was becoming impatient, I just wanted to get out of the car (after all there was a heat index of 106 that day). I decided to cut through a side street, and I was caught by a stop light. UGH!!! Finally the light was green..... I proceed, but what was the holdup? I realize that I was behind the funeral traffic for the SGT that gave his life fighting for our country.

My son very quietly says to me, look at all the people mom, there are so many standing outside on the sidewalk and their porches. I notice there are many with their hands over their hearts, some with flags waving in their hands, and some veterans saluting.------ Now he asks me with a HUGE lump in his throat," Mom, IF something happens to Dad would people be this nice like this for him?" ( I am at a loss for words.) He then proceeds without an answer to his previous question, " Mom where would you have dad buried?" I am still stunned I cant figure out WHY he is asking these questions. I am also in AWE at the patriotism of this town, and the amount of people just waving as the cars go by. I had so many thoughts racing through my mind, I wanted to scream, WHY?! Just so you all know I was PATIENT while following the traffic in front of me now. I was crying and felt like just a big idiot.

Where WOULD I bury him, where would we live? ( We moved an hour south 4 1/2 years ago from our home town where we BOTH grew up) I started to wonder where IS home? In fact Tom and I had been looking at houses to buy and then found out he was leaving again. I FROZE, and was too scared to make that leap, to scared to find a new place and I could never figure out why... I wasn't going to move.... I have come up with SO many excuses.... Even valid ones. I have talked to ONLY two people about this, about my feelings. One being God. Looking for the right answer.

I HAVE felt so at home where we are living, feeling as though I am a grown up and have made a home for myself, my family... A place we as a family found together. I love the new friends we have made here, and miss our old friends SO much and wish ALWAYS they were closer. However WE MOVED AWAY NOT THEM! I still don't miss the town we grew up and moved from.
YET
I
STILL
WONDER...............and cry at the thought... of WHAT IF????
My kids are thriving, they are grounded and we have planted roots in this town. I can't say honestly where we would be... Only God knows that. So tonight the house was quiet, I was washing dishes, and talking to God and listening to some praise and worship music. I asked God, Why and where and so on....and so on....
I came to some conclusions, I don't want to move out of fear--------Fear of making memories with Tom in a new home before he leaves and fear of him NOT coming home and remembering the memories we would create in nooks and crannies of a new home. I have seen it with my mother in law, she has wrestled with that daily since her husband passed away. I don't want to feel that way! I want to have something to look forward to when Tom is away.... and count the days down------- I want to have him come home and shop WITH me to buy our home... Is that SO BAD?????

My friend said it best.... She said whether you are here ( our former town) or our current one~IT IS HOME... Home is where my family is... My boys, my husband... They are my family and that is what makes a home. I am not supposed to think negatively about the "What If's?? I was listening to a song on the radio, it talked about finding my place in this world, and longing to find it. I just felt so at peace after hearing it I have asked... Where do I belong ALL week long!

God will give me direction, and the song is his reminder to me. All I have to do is seek him, lean on him and I WILL find my way.... my place with my ENTIRE family! I am praying for that and trusting his will! Just as I am praying for comfort for the family and friends that just lost this soldier~

Sunday, July 15, 2007

I dont like green beans!

I dont think that I like green beans ANYMORE~

In fact I know I dont~ Atleast not today! I have picked beans 3 times this week. My freezer is getting very full, but my hands are sore, and I am tired of picking them. UGH! Hubby is staying busy so he can't help me pick or snap or freeze!

I am really actually kind of grumpy, and I can't snap out of it! I know it wont be long and he will be gone. We are planning a vacation to Florida before he leaves but everytime we think we are ready to lock in a date then the ARMY SAYS NO! So now we just wait and WAIT!

Maybe soon we will get to see Mickey and Pooh~

I just really do not want him to leave and the only thing he keeps talking about is leaving and what he will be doing there. YES... I want to know, but I am starting to feel really aggervated, and, Dont get me wrong, I am proud of him and what he will do there. My emotions are feeling a little bit RAW!

I remember all too well what it was like when he was gone before, the missed holidays, birthdays and family get togethers. How I felt seeing other couples with their children, and at times feeling angery that I could NOT share that time with my husband. Seeing the couples laugh with their children. What he was missing as a father, that the boys were doing... 1st words and steps.. Now this time one going to Kindergarten and the other Drivers ED!
Worring on a DAILY basis that he was safe. Dreading phone calls at times. People calling asking me if he was one of the injured they heard about on the radio or T.V. AS IF I WOULD NOT TELL THEM!

I wish that I had someone who really understands! Instead of just telling me that you do...When unless you have lived it......... YOU DONT!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Blogger and Gardening!

Why can't I just get one post in? Blogger is being MEAN! I am getting aggervated!

File under another lost post! I just dont get this thing! I cant post pictures and the thing wont even save my post!

Here is VERY simple version.

Staying busy with hubby training to leave for Iraq
Kids and I go to pool when we can
Mower is being a meany again and keeps breaking
Garden is kicking my tush
Been canning cucumbers,Have 19 jars.. tomatoes are next.
Positive thing is I have 12, 1 gallon bags full of green beans in my freezer.
Josh went to Military camp, had a great time.
Kids are growing
planning a vacation before hubby leaves.

Whew... I cant type more or I may loose it all!
How is everyone?

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Crazy Busy and Chaos

I keep trying to post on here, however blogger is being very difficult. I type out everything I want to say, and then try and add my photos and I loose it all! It all just disappears. I have tried this for about a week now. So You may or may not get pictures today! LOL!

We have been staying very busy with the garden which is growing beautifully. Everything is nice and green and getting tall. I can hardly wait to have fresh veggies. I am really looking forward to a summer favorite of ours here. Pasta salad with cucumbers and tomatoes. MMM MMM Good! Makes my mouth water thinking about it!

Hubby is staying busy as well with work, he has been moving his office so it has been very chaotic and busy for him. He keeps trying to learn more about leaving, and everything changes from day to day!

The boys are enjoying the summer as well as they can. Our Park pool isn't opened yet, they are fixing a leak and until then we are just out of luck. However we can still go to the base and use the pool there. I just don't know why we haven't done that yet!

Josh has had his own fun. He broke his collar bone, scapula, and acroniom. The meds make him VERY hyper and silly! We have had a MRI for extra testing. The doctor had some concerns and has run some test to make sure things are OK. We are praying for things to all work out and everything to be alright. We will know for sure soon! We go back to the specialist on Friday.

Made a trip to Michigan, what a trip it was. Neice graduated, Josh was hurt ,and the kids cried and fought off and on the whole drive. I was SO glad to be back at home!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Gardening and Mani~pedis!






I haven't had much time to blog lately... You name it, I have been busy doing it. My van was in the shop for 6 days... Thank God for the extended warranty! The garden is taking a LOT of work, but the results will all be worth it! We have NEVER had a garden this big... The bugs want to eat the greens so hubby suggested some "bug dust... so far NO more hole or bugs! YEA!!!!
Here is what we planted...

Leaf Lettuce,

Green Onions (2 rows),

Green Beans (3 rows),

18 tomato plants (various kinds),

Sweet Peppers,

Red Bell Peppers,

Green Bell Peppers,

Hot Peppers,

Cantaloupe

Watermelon

Carrots

Radishes

Kohlrabi

Cucumbers (8 mounds)


I took it upon myself today to treat myself a bit!!

I had made a appointment to get my nails done, but when I arrived they had put someone in my spot, So the guy that usually does pedicures said....You sit here.. I carefully explained I was only there for a set of acrylic nails. He said SIT. I SAT, and got a free pedicure and 20% off my nails. All for being patient~ Then I came home and hoed the garden LOL! Hope you all enjoy your day, I am ready for a nap~

Saturday, May 19, 2007

What a weekend!





I had a great post about our weekend, and how the boys are doing great in T~Ball, and how Trenton hit a homerun today. The ball went so far, and he didnt even use the "T"! Dad would have been SO proud! I even had great pictures of our garden, even showing where Hubby hit the beans with the tiller last night. ( I lost the garden pictures... ) NOT HAPPY!! Garden looks so nice!

Went to a Tupperware party ( Kinda, more like popped in, interuppted, placed order left to kids game and came back!) LOL! Also I scrapped 2 pages .. First time ever! Anyway hope that you all enjoy what is here!

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Hands and Feet, and Moms Day

I know that topic will get some attention~ I just don't know what else to give this.

I have really been thinking about this since a new blog friend brought to my attention that she thought that soldiers were like God's hands and feet. It has never been my intention to make this blog about my husband or to get pity. I did receive a few emails regarding poor me.. Anyway, I had a really busy weekend, I was sick last week, and the boys had a game Saturday and then a birthday party for a friends daughter. Hubby has been away working 12 hour shifts with 1 hour drives to and from work for a Homeland saftey mission. All I wanted today was to stay home and stay in my Jammie's. That is ALL that I wanted for moms day. I got so MUCH more. Hubby was told to celebrate moms day another day for me, I didnt want him to worry about today with his work and him being exhausted.. I DO at times TRY to baby him! Our oldest had told me he had asked Dad to take him to buy some potting soil and flowers to put in a favorite pot that is empty. It didn't happen though. Josh did however take the Lil guys upstairs and tried to get Trent to tell him why he loved me and help him write it out. I got a picture of a 4 year olds version of one single potato. He loves my potatoes and carrots. (So he says!) I will be keeping this picture for the next meal with one of these on the menu. I got a nice homemade card from Josh. He is such an artist. Christian snuck a hot dog out of the fridge while a friend and I were talking about our mothers days and kids games. I asked him what he was eating.. I got a blah and hum. ( Couldn't understand) I smelled the hot dog, and asked "Are you eating a hot dog?" He said, "No, I eat hot ruff ruff". He calls dogs Ruff Ruffs, and so that is now I assume what he call Hot dogs! From him I got laughter.

Finally, I got a great new perspective on soldiers... I had never really considered men and women out on the battle field as God's hands and feet. I am really chewing on this. My husband would not EVER consider himself a hero, not sure about God's hands or feet either. Most of the soldiers or even firemen, medics, police officers that we know don't even consider themselves heroes. I do however think that God can use someone and their ability's to help others. Doctors for the ill, Police for those who need a mediator or to help someone get back on track when they are at fault. Firemen to save a home, office or structure. So many more examples could be given. If you ask these people, any of them I can almost bet the answer to the question of being a hero would be the same.... Most don't think of themselves as Hero's. They call it their job, their duty. However, I doubt that they have been referred to as God's hands or feet. They all run/walk on tired feet to do their job, and they all use their hands to help those in need. Whether it is fighting for their country, our freedom, our safety from a burning building, or a doctor helping the sick or a surgeon repairing damaged organs or broken limbs. They may not know it but God does have a plan for us all. Hands, feet and all.
NOTE~

I got so much today and I did it in the comfort of my home wearing my Jammie's, snuggling on the couch watching old movies. This really was the best mothers day ever, and it cost NOTHING! A note though.. Hubby ALWAYS babies me on mothers day so he is not in the doghouse, he was doing his job being mine and YOUR protector using the hands and feet God gifted him! Thank you Michelle for the new prospective!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Thinking

You stay up for 16 hours.

He stays up for days on end.


You take a warm shower to help you wake up.

He goes days or weeks without running water!


You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.

He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.


You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up
with
your friends.

He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.


You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.

He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.


You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.

He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.


You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.

He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.


You complain about how hot it is.

He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his
brow.



You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order
wrong.

He doesn't get to eat today.


Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.

He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.


You go to the mall and get your hair redone.

He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.


You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.

He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.


You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.

He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.


You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.

He holds his letter close and smells his love's perfume.


You roll your eyes as a baby cries.

He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll
ever
meet....


You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.

He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers
why he is fighting.



You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.

He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded...


You see only what the media wants you to see.

He sees the broken bodies lying around him.


You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.

He does exactly what he is told,because if he doesn't...


You stay at home and watch TV.

He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.


You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.

He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.



You sit there and judge him, saying the world is probably a worse place
because of men like him.

If only there were more men like him!!!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Flowers And Trips To The Park

I have waited two long years for this baby to bloom.... everytime it starts to one of the kids pull on it thinking it is a weed so I have to wait again... This year it is thriving and bloomed!
Woo ~Hoo! My favorite color is purple so this is spectacular!
Dad at the park being a GIGANTIC kid!

We have been so busy with yard work, hubby working, trying to learn more out about him leaving to Iraq.... I just decided the other day that it was so nice and that we should take the boys to the park and let them play! The boys had such a great time. I think Daddy was the biggest kid out of them all~ I personally felt a little sad when we there, I remember hubby's last deployment and how lonely it was taking the kids out alone. I felt happy that he was there with us but sad that I know he will leave soon... After we left he park we took the boys for ice~cream! It was a really great evening!

This is Trenton's favorite slide~ Whewwww!!!

Mom!!! "Daddy said it was okay to go head first... catch me okay mom!"

I {heart} this picture, the boy's were looking at the duck's and I just kinda stepped back and took this picture... I just think I may need to start scrapbooking!

I am climbing really high.... this is so fun!

Do their noses look yellow? Weird!
Christian wasnt sure about the slide so he decieded to go back down... then up again!

This is the slide Trent was unsure of.. He was so scared at first, would NOT let go and when he did he ended up going down about 5 more times! Yeahhhhh!!!!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Busy Busy!

Still alive, just busy...

Tilled garden, mowing AGAIN and AGAIN!

Still have to plant green beans, 20 tomatoe plants, peppers, green onion sets, and regular onions!

More mowing..

T~ Ball With Both babies!... Lizza you better come to atleast one game!

Whooaaa Too much work... I cant keep up!

When it is raining I will post more... So expect it soon were soppossed to get rain for the next 2-3 days and LOTS of it!

Friday, April 13, 2007

Remember~

Hello~ This is Lizza, I am guest blogging for my friend Christal today. I want to share these thoughts with you! The following is a link I would like for you to view! Thanks Lizza!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ervaMPt4Ha0
Young or Old, Black or White, Male or Female, Serving or Not… I think we ALL need to stop what ever we are doing for 5 minutes and watch this video, for the MEN & WOMEN stopped what they were doing in there EVERYDAY life to go FIGHT for US ALL, some to NEVER return to doing what they were, MOST will return…but will they be the same…I think WE ALL know the answer to that. So every morning when you wake, think of them and say a prayer that GOD will watch over them TODAY and EVERYDAY to keep them SAFE and ALIVE. At dinner think of them and that they to have something warm to eat. And at bedtime for there SAFE return home to tuck in THOSE they MISS & LOVE so much.
~~~GOD BLESS THEM ALL~~~
Love, Lizza

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Anger? Pity?

Okay this may be a tough post. When my husband was home on leave from Afghanistan he got very ill from over eating. ( He was so thrilled at the home cooked foods and things he missed while away that he gorged!) Anyway at 5:30am on a cold February morning 2 years ago I went into town and stopped at a pharmacy for some anti-nausea medicine. The pharmacist advised me that it would be about 10-15 minutes as their computers were slow due to a ice and snow that we were getting. I decided to drive to the grocery store and get some Sprite, crackers, soup and of coarse a few other items since I was already at the store. Anyway I went back to my car and the doors had froze shut and the entire car was COVERED in ice. I unlocked ( YES THEY WERE LOCKED) the doors and tried to get inside... The only door I could open was the front passenger door. I was putting the items in the car over the seat and all at once I have a gun shoved in my side and a "person" telling me to SHHH! I was completely frozen, I lost all fine motor skills I couldn't scream or speak. I was being mugged! I shudder at the thought. I felt my breath leave my body. My purse was stolen. My complete identity. I was lost and felt helpless. I was terrified to be out after dark and I still wont park in that parking space at the store. Alot of things regarding this really effected me.

Today it all came flooding back. I went to Walmart to get a few items. Shopped and even ate at McDonald's with the boys. Anyway, I came back to van buckled the boys in car seats and proceeded to put the things in the van that were purchased. Opened front van door and noticed papers were everywhere. MIND YOU IT IS VERY VERY WINDY TODAY! I thought very little of it at first. Until I had to move EVERY item out of the way. I have a longaberger basket between the driver and passenger seat that holds DVDs and such. It was dumped on the floor of the passenger side. I immediately realized that someone had been in my van and could still be. I got the boys out and said oops we forgot something. ( I said that in case someone was inside they would not hurt the boys or I and hopefully they would get out and leave.) I went inside and called the police. The police said there was nothing they could do, I didn't see anyone. Took report and left. I got home and started organizing my van again. Nothing was missing besides the change I had in the "dish". I however had my bible in the van.... I don't go to church every week but my bible is something I value. It was ripped up and shredded. That angers me more then anything... I wish I had a DVD or something stolen... Even if they took my bible that is better then destroying it!
I AM at a loss for words! I just don't understand. Again I feel as I did having a gun shoved into my side so hard that I actually was bruised... I just don't get it! I don't know if I should be mad or pity the person that did this!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Therapy?


My sister in Law lives in California, and works in a tasting room at a winery. I have posted before about her! She sent this "T" to me! I am NOT a big drinker BUT I still laughed so hard when I opened this up! I love this shirt and can't wait to wear it! Yes it did fit too! WOOO HOO!! I guess every now and then we all need a little "Group Therapy" Thanks Amy! Love ya Sis!

Monday, April 09, 2007

Easter Let Down






Let me say that first I wont air the dirty laundry on here.....I refuse to go into the details of the thing that REALLY set me off. I will however say that hubby really hurt my feelings and WE all paid for it yesterday. He had his grumpy day.. ON Easter!
My nephews came over with their father to color eggs, have an egg hunt and eat dinner.
The sad thing is, I dont talk to my sister much and found out that her boys had NEVER colored an easter egg or had participated in an egg hunt. I was VERY bothered by this. I could see how excited they were and how happy they were. I am glad that they had alot of fun. ( Just pray for them... They could ALL use it)
In one of the pictures you will see my son. Trent... He could have cared less about the eggs once he seen the Easter Bunny Cake! HE JUST POUTED! Brother in Law brought the cake for the kids! He is a Great dad, it is just sad that things didnt work for my sister and him. He wants to work things out with her. ( Again Pray!)
My hubby ( The MEAN OLE GRUMP) and him hid eggs all over the yard yesterday... ( There were over 100 eggs!) Took them forever to hide them.
I didnt get pictures of them boys on the egg hunt either.... I lost my memory stick... ( Found it last night!) LOL! Dont even ask! Atleast I found it! Anyway I hope that everyones easter was better then ours... But then again atleast Hubby was home and safe and my nephews got to have a nice easter.... ( Theyre 8 and 10) This was their FIRST~

Friday, April 06, 2007

Remote Control?

Does anyone know who actually invented the remote control? I guess that I could probably do a Google search and find out.. BUT!!

I tried to take a picture of the pile of remotes we have purchased that seem to get thrown around and broken. Then the kids take them and play with them when they no longer work.

I bought a couple of universal remotes back around Christmas and for some reason they ALWAYS work for the satellite but the T.V. button doesn't stay programed. Geesh! After posting yesterday, I thought I am GRUMPY and I am going to watch a little television. DARN remote! I tossed it to the other end of the couch, got online to find a phone number to call RCA. WHAT?? You can ONLY email them.? SO I did. I was very aggravated. Three whole hours later they emailed me back to tell me they did not make their phone number public on the RCA website and that they were sorry for my aggravation and gave me a 800 number to call them! IT WAS AUTOMATED! I pressed 1 for this and 1 for that then 2 and 3 and SO ON...
I got this message that said ... GET THIS
Step one.. Remove batteries from the remote, if they are old get new ones and set aside until ALL steps are complete.
Step two. Press and hold any button for 60 seconds with out releasing the button.
Step three. Put batteries in remote making sire they are installed properly
Step four. Re- program the codes for your devices

You have now reset your remote, Thanks for calling RCA. Goodbye!

Thinking.... How does this reset a remote? There are No batteries in the remote... Like this will work! Give me a break RCA! I tried it.... It did work and it has not lost programming yet. I don't believe it! That was all I had to do? I didn't have to spend 19.95 on a remote COUNTLESS times just to sit on my butt and watch T.V.....

I am SO laughing out loud right now. I sound like a GRUMP! Still laughing! I guess it took typing this out to see it... I am grumpy! Maybe laughter will cure me... Still laughing. Oh dear!

Also about yesterdays post, I was NOT trying to offend anyone about yesterdays post. I know that you all mean well. I just had enough. Being grumpy and then going to Walmart where there was someone to remain nameless asking WAY TOO many questions. Come on... I understand that people are concerned and don't understand. I have felt the same in the past before my husband was ever called away. I asked the same questions and now I know why people would roll their eyes or become upset.
I appreciate all the emails and comments regarding this, I am grateful that you are all thinking of us, and for the prayers going up! Thanks to you all. It is NOT always easy but I am PROUD of my husband and thankful to him and all the other men and women out there.
For some reason I am feeling a little better.... Maybe it is from the laughing out loud at how silly I have acted! I guess everyone is intitled to being a grump at times!
Hope that everyone has a GRUMP FREE day and have lots of laughter instead! I am for one going to try!

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Top 10 things Not to ask.. and the answers

I have a lot of friends with husbands who are deployed right now. For most of them this is at least their second or third deployment to go through as a couple. So the other day I was talking with a friend whose husband is currently deployed and we started talking about the most annoying things that usually well-meaning people say to us regarding deployments. We agreed that we are always polite in our responses and that we realize that the offending person usually had only the best of intentions. But here's what we came up with as the things we get asked or told that really make our skin crawl. They're not in any particular order. Feel free to add some of your own in the comments.

1. "Aren't you afraid that he'll be killed?" (This one ranks in at number one on my "duh" list. Of course we're afraid. We're terrified. The thought always lingers at the backs of our minds ---but thanks, you just brought it back to the front. Maybe next you can go ask someone with cancer if they're scared of dying.)

2. "I don't know how you manage. I don't think I could do it." (Though this is really annoying, I feel bad about mentioning it because I know that it is intended to be a compliment. Still, it's not like all of us military wives have been dreaming since childhood of the day we'd get to be anxious single moms who carry cell phones with us to the bathroom. We're not made of some mysterious matter that makes us more capable, we just got asked/told to take on a challenging job and we rose to the challenge.)

3. "At least he's not in Iraq." (This is the number one most annoying comment for my friends whose husbands are in Afghanistan. As one friend put it, "What do they think is happening in Afghanistan? A huge game of golf? Guys are fighting and dying over there, too."

4. "Do you think he'll get to come home for Christmas/anniversary/birthday/birth of a child/wedding/family reunion, etc?" (Don't you watch the news? No. They don't get to come home for any of these things. Please don't ask again.)

5. "What are you going to do to keep yourself busy while he's gone?" (Short answer: Try to keep my sanity. Maybe there's a military wife out there who gets bored when her husband leaves, but I have yet to meet her. For the rest of us, those with and without children, we find ourselves having to be two people. That keeps us plenty busy. We do get lonely, but we don't get bored.

6. "How much longer does he have until he can get out?" This one is annoying to many of us whether our husbands are deployed or not. Many of our husbands aren't counting down the days until they "can" get out. Many of them keep signing back up again and again because (gasp!) they love what they do.

7. "This deployment shouldn't be so bad, now that you're used to it." (Sure, we do learn coping skills. And we figure out ways to make life go smoother while the guys are gone. But it never gets easy and the bullets and bombs don't skip over our guys just because they've been there before. The worry never goes away.)

8. "My husband had to go to Europe for business once for three weeks. I totally know what you're going through." (This one is similar to number two. Do not equate your husband's three week trip to London/Omaha/Tokyo/etc. with a one-year deployment to a war zone. Aside from the obvious trip length difference, nobody shot at your husband or tried to blow him up with an I.E.D., your husband could call home pretty much any time he wanted to, he flew comfortably on a commercial plane, slept between crisp white sheets and ate well, paying for everything with an expense account. There is no comparison. We do not feel bonded to you in the slightest because of this comment and, if anything, we probably resent you a bit for comparing a combat deployment to a business trip.

9. "Don't you miss him?" (Like number one, this one gets a big "duh" from me. Of course we miss our husbands. If we didn't, we'd get divorced.)

10. "Where is that?" (I don't expect non-military folks to be able to find Anbar Province on a map, but they should know by now that it's in Iraq. Likewise, know that Kabul and Kandahar are in Afghanistan. Know that Muqtada al Sadr is the insurgent leader of the Mahdi Army in Iraq and that Sadr City is his home area. Know that Iran is a major threat to our country and that it is located between Afghanistan and Iraq. Our country has been at war in Afghanistan for six and a half years and at war in Iraq for four years. These basic facts are not secrets, they're on the news every night and in the papers every day ---and on maps everywhere. You've had time to learn it. Do your part by at least knowing what is going on.)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

I want to Go........

TO DREAM LAND....
Do you ever wish that you could cross over from reality to dream~land. I seen this picture the other day and thought about how much I liked it. Not just because I am a HUGE Disney fan.
Everything lately seems to be unraveling. Life STINKS!
Tom hears more about leaving to Iraq and tells me a little bit more, I just want to tell him not to go, but I keep my mouth shut. He can't stay here just because I say he can't go, or because his mom says SON YOUR GROUNDED~ ( His mom said to tell the military that HA HA) I know he is doing his job and doesn't want to leave us but at the same time he doesn't want to not go with his guys. I guess the thing is now, I KNOW what to expect since he has already done a 16 month " field trip" in Afghanistan. He had a tough time, missed home, holidays, birthdays, and our anniversary, lost four friends on Easter day, and his wedding ring on Valentines day. We missed a lot too. The kids need their father. ( ALL Kids do.) I am doing my best to not say anything about how miserable I ( or we) will be. I know it wont be easy for him either and I don't want to give him more stress. So I am just praying for peace and safety and strength.
I also went to the doctor about being "late" and having dreams about being pregnant, along with one negative pregnancy test and one positive. There is no baby, I am NOT pregnant. It is stress and hormones. I was scared of being pregnant, with him leaving and the fact that he has been "neutered". I told him I was late, and he said how.... I have not been messing around and he said you cant be pregnant and if you are I wont be happy, because it would make him think I did something wrong.( he is neutered remember) BUT he did say he would not leave not leave me not knowing the truth about the baby's paternity. SO I was relived about that, and that he trusted me. If we were meant to have a baby we would and that he would be fine with. ( Just not me cheating) So anyway I was thinking OK, a baby I can do this.. Now it is not a thought... Just a little relieved and sadness at the same time. I just wish I could crawl inside that canvas with Tink and go play and dance where there are no worries and be a kid. My grandpa would be proud to hear me say that. When I was mad and grumpy on my 13th birthday I wished that I could be a grown up when I blew out the candles. (I told only him my wish) . He said I bet when you are grown you wont feel the same. He even bet me I wouldn't. Here is to Grandpa..... $20.00... He won!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Snakes and Snails?? Oatmeal??


Arent Boys soppossed to be made of Snakes and snails and puppy dog tails?
I am trying to nurse my sunburn so I slip off to the restroom and I hear SCREAMING!
MOMMMM!!!!! I come running....
Covered in Green slimmy Aloe Vera.... The youngest decided to get the entire container of oatmeal out and decorate. Boys are not soppossed to be made of oatmeal! Are they??????

Burnt toast

Fried is more the word! Every year I tan in the tanning bed. Never with out fail, I will get a little Pink at first ( maybe first visit or two.) My friends know I tan pretty well. So without anymore bragging or picking on my hubby ( who is one fair-skinned, pale sucker) I am tucking my chin and saying I am Fried~ I WONT be bragging that I am darker then him. He told me last night, "You are getting older your body is changing, it can't handle things like the sun like it did when you were young"! Did I mention I am BURNT? My eyes are swollen and red, even my eyebrows and earlobes are burnt... The crease in my neck hurts too.

Oh to make things worse... Another pregnancy dream.
I dreamed I gave birth to a Fried, charred, brown, burnt up chicken. OH MY!
Running for the ALOE!

Monday, March 26, 2007

I Love this!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.! LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Friday, March 23, 2007

UGH!

Sorry everyone, I cant seem to get my pictures to upload properly... Anyway I am going to go throw a rock or scream or something... Blogger is really making me MAD!

Spring Time Blahs

With the thoughts that My husband could go away again very soon... I am pondering on Springtime, and new beginnings.When he was gone he missed so much of the changing of the seasons. I couldnt believe that he missed it the way he did... He said that yes there is some green in Afghanistan but there was more sand and you had to travel to find the grass. I took a couple of pictures yesterday of home, I was TRYING to get a couple pictures of the lightning. It was tremendous! It was just Raining.... The other two are from Afghanistan. The climates are SO different! Tom informed me that while the guys were gone that one of them missed the colors of natures SO much that he had his wife seed him seeds, soil and pots to have a flower garden outside of their home. (If that is what you call being in a foriegn country with voilence all around you)Perhaps I am a little bitter and to say the least upset. I think that everyone should have some color in their lives.God gave us eyes and made things beautiful for a reason. I say we should all enjoy it! Stop and smell the flowers. Think of the service men and women that are missing home, the trees blooming, the grass turning springtime green... Something in everyday life I am sure we all take for granted! When Tom came home on leave to Indiana from Afghanistan for two weeks in January mind you, when it is cold and snowy all he could say the whole ride home was how pretty it was here how Green and how colorful things were. I challenge you all to take a minute while you are planting or picking out flowers or veggies for those gardens to think of the men and women out there missing home... Missing their families and missing COLOR! I dont think I can imagine what it's like! What it would be like to gone away from everything cheery, bright, colorful and still be away from home! God Gave us the beauty of the colors of the rainbow~

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

The Rabbit Didn't Die



I am not too sure if I am really happy about this or not... I have been having dreams every single night.... This makes night 11~ that I am pregnant. WHY is this?

I talked about it to a friend or 2 thinking that would nip the dreams. Sometimes talking about a recurring dream makes them stop! It hasnt~!

I even bought and took a home test, Nothing! Nada... Thought that seeing it would stop the dreams.... it didnt! Had it again!!!! What is going on?

Hubby seems to think we are going to get called again, like we did with our nephews that we adopted... I dont know.. Maybe it is just hormones!

I must say though upon the negative results, I was initally relieved, but then I was saddened! I would have liked to be pregnant again!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

One Door Closed! To: Lizza~





As a child I often heard my mother and father say that when one door closes that God will always open another. I became a teenager, and had normal tiff's with girlfriends and Mom would say "I know you are upset Just remember that when one door closes another one will open." This pertains to friends as well she said. She always told me that things may happen that we just don't understand, and never may. Mom also said that God puts people in our paths for a reason, even if it is for a short time.

With this being said, I know she is right. We moved to a small town where I knew not a single person. Not but a week after moving we had gotten temporary custody of our nephew for about 6 months. Anyway for the sake of heartache, I wont go into all the details. Anyway, he went back to his very young mother. I was so devastated, I thought the world was ending. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I could barley breath. My husband kept reminding me for weeks that I had to get up and that I was still a mother and we had a son that needed me. I mustered up all I could within me. He suggested that I go to a spa, a tanning bed, get my nails done... anything to just get moving and pampered. I love to tan so I went to a local tanning bed. There she was!
~Lizza~
I went in and here is this woman, that was so friendly I had initially thought Oh God, WHY IS SHE SO STINKIN NICE? I tanned we had small talk... I left and kept thinking God she WAS TOO sweet... I thought it was almost sick... It was me though, I was angery at the ENTIRE world! It really wasn't her!
I continued tanning and when I would go in she would would ALWAYS give a very cheerful Hello! We began to make small talk and we would chat... then one day we just talked and talked. It seemed as though I had known her forever. We had so much in common... We even like "Granny clothes".... LOL! Remember Shopping Lizza? I still think those outfits were for you!


I got a job working with her, and weve continued to remain friends. I never in a million years would know how important she would be to me in my life. My husband was getting ready to leave to Afghanistan and I was ALONE... (Or so I thought) At the same time he was getting ready to leave my nephew and his new baby brother were going to come and live with us. What would I do. I was sending my husband overseas and becoming a caregiver to two very young and needy children. The oldest had a lot of problems, due to his bio mom. I had no idea what was in store. She immediately stepped up and offered to help in any way she could. Sent a special card, that to this day makes me cry. She acknowledged thta she knew I was going to be there for the children even though it would be tough without my husband. Even though no one really understood, she still stood by me. Not knowing what I was really feeling she still let me lean on her.

We made it a weekly habit to go to a local resturaunt every tuesday evening, it was alot of fun, the kids all got along and ate very well. It was so nice to visit with a adult and the kids. She in more ways then one helped me through Tom being gone and the boys coming to live with us.

She was a emotional backbone for me when mine was mushy, I could call her late at night and she would NEVER get mad. I cant even think of the conversations we had about the babys.

Time has moved on and the boys are now legally ours and even though I don't see Lizza as much I know she loves us all.As much as we love and miss her, which is alot!
I guess mom was right, I was loosing my hubby to fight a war, while I had one going on at home. Lizza was there in "battle gear" fighting with me to keep me sane. She was put into my life when I needed a friend close by that I could confide in, laugh with, and lean on. The day I met her changed me forever. God gave me a friend! I love you Lizza Jane!


She sent this to me today, I am passing it to all those I love....


One morning you will never wake up, do all your friends Know you love them?

I was thinking...I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships That needed rekindling

Three words needing to be said. Let every one of Your friends know you love them.

Even if you think they don't love you back,

You would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do.

Just in case GOD calls me home before I see you again....... Live today to the fullest because tomorrow is not promised. Know that your loved!